I’m Petrified to Go Back to Work

I need to be emotionally prepared to go back.

3 min readFeb 27, 2022


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I’ve been out of work since November 29th because of catching the Delta variant. Then I was hospitalized on February 10th for infectious colitis. Finally, however, the time has come that I must return to work, and I’m going to be completely honest here.

I’m fucking petrified to go back to work.

I haven’t worked for a total of fourteen weeks, and I don’t feel like I’m 100 percent ready to start working in the grocery store. Then again, I don’t believe I’ll ever truly feel 100 percent ready, which is most likely emotional.

My job position is a self-checkout attendant where I help customers ring up their groceries at self-checkout.

I’m standing on my feet for seven hours, and I only get two ten-minute breaks within that seven-hour shift. It’s difficult to stand on a hard floor for seven hours when you have severe neuropathy.

I fear my feet aren’t ready to stand for seven to eight hours a day, and there’s just so much pain medication I can take but still be coherent enough to drive and do my job correctly.

I Need to Look for Ways to Help Me Perform My Job Duties.

My doctor wrote me a note to give to management stating that I need some accommodations due to my lifelong disability.

Such as having a stool or chair at the self-checkout podium so I could sit and rest my feet if needed and having extra breaks, also if needed.

I’m still debating whether I should talk to my doctor about switching to a more vital pain medication to ease my pain and still be lucid enough to perform my job duties without any problems.

I also could ask management if I could work on the del self-checkout. That way, I could sit down at one of the tables and still watch over my customers using self-checkout.

Of course, sitting down at one of the tables in the deli will be if needed. I’ll even need to ask management to schedule me 32 hours four days a week.

Starting at 32 hours a week rather than 40 hours will help me get back into the swing of things and get my…




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